Light at the end of the tunnel ...

It's nearly over. In eight days my MOTH will be home !!!

I'm still feeling more than a little despondent though. The MOTH says I worry too much.

We are planning on starting our own business when he finally makes it home, which he will then go on to work in full time while I carry on working somewhere else.

But the bank are being awfully annoying about wanting us to prove we can do a pesky little thing like pay back a business loan. While I am working at the moment, apparently a two month temp contract doesn't count as a "real" job in the world of banking red tape. Why can't they see that if they lend us the money then the MOTH will be working ... and if they don't, he won't be ?!?!?

He's also been offered the opportunity of other work in his chosen field for a few months ... several hours drive from here. At least we would see him on weekends ...

But we didn't move home to Whangarei so he could live in a different city. And the closer it gets to him coming home, and the longer I don't have a real job, the more likely it seems that his homecoming is going to be a temporary reprieve for us all at best.

And it's really really hard not to feel like a failure when no one wants to employ you ...